I just came home, wrecked and overwhelmed by a challenging day. I tell myself I will write, but I don't know what to write about, so I sit down anyway and start writing. I still don't know what to write about, but I keep writing, hoping inspiration will come.
I do so because a few days ago I came across a video in which someone spoke about taking responsibility and getting things done even when he felt lazy. The idea caught my attention.
Oh, I am inspired; I will do the same. Easier said than done. I sit down, open my laptop, and start typing, but I don't know what to write about; I keep writing anyway. It's horrible, but I try to suppress my feelings. I am so uncomfortable.
A cup of coffee appears in my mind, then cake, but I keep writing because I refuse to be distracted. Yet the thoughts of coffee and cake keep coming. I rebuke them, but they get the better of me. I am going into the kitchen. I stop for a while; I think of YouTube. I feel extremely lazy. I sigh; there is nothing to say. I look at my desk; there is nothing here. There is a storm in my mind; something is not right. What am I doing? Writing! Really?
Why isn't my phone ringing? Right now, no one is calling me when I desperately need a good excuse to escape. It's not happening. I run my finger over the keys. No, I am not calling anyone. I will feel guilty; I need to write.
I stand up and think, then sit down again, and write a few words, but oh, the cup of coffee and cake are calling my name; they are stronger than me. Ok, I need to go. I need that hot coffee and cake.
Hang on a minute, I am coming back...
Ok, I am back. That coffee and cake were refreshing. I have some strength to write. Surely inspiration will come, but instead I hit a mental block. What the heck! What do I write about now? I am flat out. Nothing is coming to mind. What do I do? That writing business is difficult. No, that's too easy; it's impossible.
What do I do? Let me browse the internet; I might find something there. Alright, I run my finger over "let's make money fast" and settle in to read comfortably. No, that's not working; what to do next? Let me go back to YouTube. No, I'd better get a shower, have dinner and come back.
Well, as you can see, it is not that easy to write. I think I will leave for now, because, honestly, I don't feel like writing. I am not inspired and extremely lazy right now.
There's a tiny voice playing the same old song at the back of my mind. "money, money, money, there must be an easier way to make money without much effort..."
Hey, can you believe I have made it this far? Well, see you next time.
That was me then.